As I drove to Columbia yesterday, I was completely focused on anything but the radio... and then this song came on and I thought to myself... it's so true!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5PBEMfbWq_Y
I'm not sure about anyone else, but one of the first things I thought about when Daddy died was Christmas... how would Christmas be without him? I haven't really let myself go all the way there because I don't like to be sad. It's nothing something I get up every day and say "How can I be sad today!". When Ben went to the table to check in at the basketball game Tuesday... it hit me... I pushed it away. He looks like Daddy, loves basketball like Daddy, and he has Daddy's humor! He has definitely left his mark on him. Katie Britt is winding down the first semester of her senior year, and I won't let myself get all the way to thinking "this time next year she will be gone most of the time". In other words, sadness, anxiety, fear, and nervousness creep up on me without me looking for it! I don't need to be focused on my emotions for Christmas right now.
Through Facebook, the news, social media, I have seen many others who have lost loved ones this year. This song is for you if your Christmas is going to be a little different this year. As I listened to the song, I realized that Daddy would not want me to be all sappy and sad at Christmas. He would want us to be just as loud, just as aggravating to each other, and eat just as much as we wanted for the month of December.
Tomorrow is the first Sunday of Advent... It's all about Hope. I hope that this Christmas will be filled with wonderful memories and new memories to carry out the rest of my children's lives. I know that my attitude can reflect my entire family... I choose to be positive... I choose to remember happy times... and I choose to do just like this song says.... It's time to be just like it used to be! My hope is for each of you reading this to take this song to heart... whether your house is different this year because of death, divorce, the devil.... whatever the reason... you can put hope in the celebration of birth of that sweet little baby Jesus.
Merry Christmas Season!
